I was v v nervous about not being a teenager anymore, in true Miranda fashion I spent the week saying “Goodbye Youth”. But I’m pleased to say that there was no need to be worried, because now I am 20 I can confirm that it’s a pretty cool age to be.
I started to reflect a lil on what being a teenager was like and it was absolutely crazy, from start to finish thats for sure. There were random phases like my goth phase (yep), when everyone played man hunt, ciders in the sunshine, house parties, muddy walks where someone would fall in the river, annual Stamford Fair trip, endless shows and plays. I’ve been to sooo many amazing places including Budapest, Amsterdam, Venice, New York, Padstow, Nice, Paris, Barcelona, Lake District, Yorkshire Moors, Cardiff, Edinburgh, and so many others. I’ve also seen some of my fave artists like Laura Marling, Coldplay, Beyonce, and obvs Miley Cyrus on her ‘Can’t be Tamed’ tour, bc I can’t be *duhh*. I had some great music phases as well, like Lil Chris, then to old R&B/Hip Hop like Sir Mix a Lot, DJ Easy Rock, MC Hammer, then classic teenage girl music provided by Tay Tay, Katy Perry, Avril Lavigne, thrown in with Mumford and Sons, Laura Marling, Ben Howard, Noah and the Whale, Coldplay esp the Ghost Stories album and Adele – her 21 and 25 albums are too dreamy for words. I also knew all the words and dance to the Miley Cyrus’ ‘Hoedown Throwdown’ and have no shame about it.
There were so many first times like doing a triathlon (lol why did I do that to myself), having surgery, holidays with friends, moving away from home, renting a house with friends, visiting America, writing a play and it being performed and seen by other humans *gasp* and like 35839 other things I’ve obvs forgotten when having to actually remember them. Also lots of last times including being with my Dad. I’m entering a decade that he has never been in and will never be in, which is a lil sad note for sure, but also I’ve grown up so much from when I was 15 and my life changed for ever spending 8 weeks sat next to my Dad’s bedside in Addenbrooks learning about tumours, brain surgery, drugs, oncologists, radio and chemotherapy. I feel the difference now, I feel how much I’ve grown up since then and the grief has developed with me, it doesn’t feel as sad or raw anymore, I’m at peace with it, which has taken a considerable amount of my teenage life to achieve.
It’s a new decade, a new chapter in a book of you and that is actually really exciting. It’s all about moving forward, which grief is a big one for pushing you to do, so I actually think it suits me being 20. So this is my lil list of why I believe we should embrace 20’s.
- NO TEENAGE HORMONES. Dreamy.
- No teenage insecurities, I have no idea what happened but this hit me so much, I just didn’t criticise myself as much right from the off, it’s like you are actually too old to be bothered about it. Because is the most important thing how your hips, thighs, ankles look? No.
- You are fully grown. Your body now is pretty much how it’s going to stay for the rest of your life, bar a few exceptions, that is crazy. You know yourself now, so now you can start being yourself.
- You’re expected to be an adult so you can actually be yourself. While still probably asking your Mum to make dinner, bc you don’t want to make too many changes too soon right?
- New decade, new you. I’m joking don’t fall for that like you do at New Year’s, it is a new decade though and it feels like a clean slate so enjoy it.
- Because you actually don’t have a choice in the matter, so embrace it, k?