Okay, so while this post title is crystal clear, I am actually not completely done with uni, which is as big a surprise to me as it is to you hun.
But let’s just rewind a sec! So a week ago, (I feel like I should be writing “four weeks ago”, but nope only a week has gone by!!) I finished my degree. Holla. I’ll write a proper post about that day real soon.
Then once I was sober I drove home the day after as I had my Nan’s thanksgiving service the following day. So it was a manic and emotional week for many reasons, and I finished the week with two days of nothing, before a weekend in London watching Kinky Boots & drowning in cocktails with Rae & Lauren. Dreams right?
But those two days of nothing were terrifying, not to mention boring. Every day I tried to write a to do list, and while I had a few odd points each day, the list was no where near as long as my final weeks of writing my dissertation. It’s so odd having no deadline left to meet, or not constantly being out of the house in a cafe, or town or a friend’s house. Adjusting to the pace of life at home is always different, while my family have their own lives and do their own thing, this time I am left with nothing to do.
So I applied to every job roughly related to my degree or job experience, and now I wait. Or so I thought.
I applied to an MA in Creative Writing at Leicester a few weeks back, and today I got an offer for a place starting in September for a year. I am thrilled! It’s so nice to know I have at least one concrete plan next year, and it’s a huge stepping stone in the right direction to become a writer. A girl can dream eh?
But the offer today made me realise that worrying about your career or finances is like worrying about the impossible, as whatever you’re worrying about, it may not come true, or be what happens next. Something else may crop up that you weren’t even worrying about yet. In About Time the time-traveller quotes a Baz Luhrmann lyric that says “worrying about the future is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life will always be things that never crossed your worried mind.” I always remember that quote, as it resonates with me so much, because it is so blatantly true. Also chatting this weekend to my friend Lauren, it made me realise that everyone feels the same way after uni. Slightly overwhelmed with real life, worried about money (mainly having none as uni squeezes your finances dry), in need of a holiday and most likely having no immediate or logical plan. You just keep trying with jobs, or courses and hope to get somewhere, someday. I’ve decided I don’t need to worry about the future or worry about the plans I have or haven’t made over the coming months. Plans come together quickly. Life changes quickly and offers new opportunities that you kinda want to have time to grab! As well as massive curve balls that you didn’t see coming and that shovel a few tons of shit and stress on you.Instead I’m gonna put down my organiser and relax into the slower pace of life for now, as I know I won’t be lucky enough to have this much free time again or these few worries again really. And it’s far easier to relax knowing that everyone is in the same boat drifting out into the open sea of the reality.