depression

anxiety and the anxious mind

Being an extrovert with depression

20th May 2020

Despite the catchy title, I’ll say now that I’m more of an introverted extrovert, but it probably isn’t surprising that when I had depression I didn’t know what it was and didn’t understand it until several years later.

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truth about my life, I'm depressed

The truth? My depression is back

25th February 2020

Life is really shit sometimes. We all get that. Right now, I’m deciding whether I go for pancakes by myself (table for one!) before I go back to an evening at a house I’m in by myself with little motivation to bother to get up tomorrow. Life has thrown things at me once again and […]

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I'm so glad it's friday

I’m so glad it’s Friday

31st January 2020

So this isn’t my usual Friday feeling, but I am so glad it’s Friday. I feel as though I could sleep for 12 hours right about now. I’m exhausted from my new job, new commute and meeting a whole bunch of new lovely people. It’s been great, but new things are tiring, as are earlier […]

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Reasons to Stay Alive

6th October 2019

I finally read Matt Haig’s highly acclaimed Reasons to Stay Alive and it was even better than I expected. I’m always slightly wary about reading books about depression as it usually leaves me dwelling on my own mental health and sometimes I can descend into the fog again. Even so, it’s also extremely comforting to […]

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dear mind

Dear Mind

16th May 2019

Trigger Publishing asked if I wanted to get involved with their Dear Mind campaign for Mental Health Awareness week. Dear Mind, You are my worst critic. You are my meanest friend. Why do you become clouded so often? Why do you trick me into believing that I am alone? Fat? Worthless? Stupid? I try to […]

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inner strength

You’re so brave

14th April 2019

A lot of people say to me “you’re so brave, for having lost your Dad and doing x and y and z” or the revised version of “You’re so brave.” I can listen to strangers or friends talk about their Dad, or cancer, or tumours. I can go into a hospital, a ward, a hospice. […]

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clearing the brain fog and clouds

Clearing brain fog and depression

27th March 2019

This is a personal essay I wrote as a presentation for my Masters in Creative Writing. It focuses on my experience of depression, or as it called it, my brain clouds or brain fog. Clearing the Clouds            “I can always tell the type of day you’re having by your hair.” My stiff student support officer […]

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