The truth? My depression is back

Life is really shit sometimes. We all get that.

Right now, I’m deciding whether I go for pancakes by myself (table for one!) before I go back to an evening at a house I’m in by myself with little motivation to bother to get up tomorrow.

Life has thrown things at me once again and I would like to hibernate tbh.

I’ve heard a list of bad things about myself that now rattle around my brain most waking seconds of most days.

I can’t turn it the depression off. Now that it’s been said and I’ve heard it, I can’t seem to shake it. I don’t know how to fix it either.

I’d like to just have a break from life, a small bit time out to just get away from everything and figure out what on earth I’m doing here and who I am. Wouldn’t we all?

I wanted to have it together, but I don’t right now because everything has fallen apart.

One day it’ll be back in one piece but right now I’m trying to figure out where those pieces are and what they even look like.

It’s ok to not know what’s next, you just have to ride out the bad days to get back to the good ones again. And I will reach a better place, in time.

How is your depression or current mental health?

Read more about mental health here.

If you need someone to talk to please either message me or contact Mind, The Samaritans and NHS helplines.

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