Turning 20

turning 20

I was very nervous about turning 20 and not being a teenager anymore. In true Miranda fashion I spent the week saying “Goodbye Youth” but I’m pleased to say that there was no need to be worried. I can confirm that 20 is a pretty cool age to be.

I started to reflect a little on what being a teenager was like and it was absolutely crazy, from start to finish.

There were random phases like my goth phase (yep), when everyone played man hunt, ciders in the sunshine, house parties, muddy walks where someone would fall in the river. Then there was the annual Stamford Fair trip, endless shows and plays.

I’ve been to sooo many amazing places including Budapest, Amsterdam, Venice, New York, Padstow, Nice, Paris, Barcelona, the Lake District, Cardiff, Edinburgh, and so many others.

I’ve also seen some of my fave artists like Laura Marling, Coldplay, Beyonce, and obviously Miley Cyrus on her ‘Can’t be Tamed’ tour, as I can’t be tamed, duh.

I had some great music phases as well like Lil Chris, then to old R&B from Sir Mix a Lot, DJ Easy Rock, MC Hammer. Then there was the classic teenage girl music provided by Tay Tay, Katy Perry, Avril Lavigne, McFly thrown in with Mumford and Sons, Laura Marling, Ben Howard, Noah and the Whale, Coldplay especially the Ghost Stories album and Adele – her 21 and 25 albums are too dreamy for words.

I also knew all the words and dance to the Miley Cyrus’ ‘Hoedown Throwdown’ and have no shame about it.

There were so many firsts like doing a triathlon (why did I do that to myself), having surgery, holidays with friends, moving away from home, renting a house with friends, visiting America, writing a play and it being performed and seen by other humans and like 35839 other things I’ve obviously forgotten at this point in time.

I also had all the ‘last times’ including being with my Dad.

I’m entering a decade of my life that he has never been in and will never be in. It’s sad, but I’ve also grown up so much from when I was 16 and lost him.

I feel the difference now, I feel how much I’ve grown up since then and the grief has developed with me, it doesn’t feel as sad or raw anymore. I’m at peace with it, which has taken a considerable amount of my teenage life to achieve.

It’s a new decade, a new chapter in the book of me and that is actually really exciting. I think 20 will suit me. It’s the time for moving forward into adult life. So I believe we should embrace 20’s.

Benefits to turning 20:

  2. No teenage insecurities. I have no idea what happened but this hit me so much. As I’ve grown up, I haven’t criticised myself as much, it’s like you become too old to be bothered about it. Because is the most important thing how your hips, thighs, ankles look? No.
  3. You are fully grown. Your body now is pretty much how it’s going to stay for the rest of your life, bar a few exceptions, that is crazy. You know yourself now, so now you can start being yourself.
  4. You’re are independent, so you can actually be yourself. While still probably asking your Mum to make dinner, because you don’t want to make too many changes too soon right?
  5. New decade, new you. I’m joking don’t fall for that like you do at New Year’s, it is a new decade though and it feels like a clean slate so enjoy it.

You actually don’t have a choice in the matter, so embrace turning 20 ok?

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